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Tuesday, October 05, 2010

A time for gratitude

Today, I had a good cry. Not because I was sad or in pain, but because I was happy, awe-struck, grateful and humbled. For more than 10 years, I have struggled with my health and with living in chronic pain and fatigue. To a certain degree, it has robbed me of so much — my joy, my spirit, my will to overcome and my life.

I prayed, I questioned, I tried to educate others, and sometimes I was on the verge of giving up. There were times that I felt like family and friend offered little to no support and sometimes their advice was counterproductive.

There were times I needed a hug, a friendly ear, or a hand to hold and it wasn’t there. Don’t get me wrong, this is not to say I received no support, I did get some, and that was enough to help me get through it. Part of the problem was that I didn’t know how to reach to let someone know I was in need. Sometimes, people do not understand the devastating impact illnesses that are not life threatening can have on your life.

I am not writing this to simply rehash the past or to make any feel sorry for me. I simply want to share with you where I have been so that you can comprehend where I am today.

For the past two weeks or so, I have been feeling great! I almost feel as well as that woman I use to be in her early twenties before any signs of illness surfaced. I am so grateful; I honestly sat in my office balling for past 10 minutes thanking the Lord for what he done for me.

A simple thing like taking the stairs pain free is a big deal for someone like me. I have literally been running up and down the stairs all day.

I am not going to focus on if or how long this will last. All I know is that this is a blessing and it would be wrong of me not give the Lord credit and to share my testimony with others. I am trying to be a good steward of the gifts I have been given. I have long way to go, especially with stewardship over taking care of my body and keeping a clean house. LOL

For those of you who have prayed for me and supported me — thank you. Your prayers and support are still needed. I hope my message will inspire you to be thankful for the blessing in your life. And when something marvelous comes your ways, share the good news.