Clear liquids: Day 1

Started off the morning (although late) with a hot cup of beef broth. It isn't the most flavorful. My natural inclination would be to add salt, but that is why I have high blood pressure. Oh well. I need to adjust to food with adding salt anyway. I will tackle some light apple juice next.

The day before the 2-day clear liquids

You would think that I would pigging out today, but I'm not. I'm not that interested in food. Tomorrow I start two days of a clear liquid diet before surgery. And I'm actually ok with that. I plan to take some full length before pictures tomorrow.

The last tango

For the last month or so, I have felt the need to say goodbye to some things. All of which are certain foods. I know that once I have the gastric bypass, the real work begins.

This is a life line. A tool. A chance. I plan to take it very seriously, but as the saying goes "the road to hell is paved with good intentions." And I have the best intentions.

I have no doubt that this is the right thing to do. The only thing I doubt is me. I have lied to myself and made excuses so long I can't honestly tell if I believe in me anymore. I would like to say that I have reached the point where enough is enough. And it is. But is that enough?

I know that some of these doubts are fueled by fear. Some are a result of my track record. Some by all of the stress in my life right now.

I am scheduled for surgery on Tuesday. Once the surgeon is done, I know that it will my turn to pick up the scalpel to carve out a new life for myself.